My Vista

I scatter the ashes of your memory across my lips

They fight to savor remnants of you

Vehemently I returned

Blindly you digress

Don’t you miss my warmth in the morning?

Melancholy across my temple of thoughts

I saw you stretched across marvelous clouds

and as I waved to reach you…you scattered

Like the rain you wroth amongst the soil,

the same was within the pupils of my being

I caressed you like a new born

I starved myself some days just to make sure I devoured all you had to give

I breath now, silently

A peace I barely remember

How calm the tyranny of solitude…

Come Home my heart beckons

Farewell my mind chants

Let the pain cease my spirit cries

Fresh smiles inebriate wounds

My pulse beats against tides of conscious

The one street lights shines in a dark street

The fact is … I’m good … without you?

[A poem By Eddy Velasquez, circa 2011]

Miss you like crazy, shit I can’t sleep
sanity at this point I’m trying to keep
Fight back tears every fuckin day
Mad at myself for pushing you away
Wasn’t fair in my assumption of you
You ignore me now, whatz a man to do?
These bitches out here are sorry as hell
Would you open the door if I ring the bell?
I need to get me right, time to grow
You do too, & this I know…
I just want to hold you, a few seconds please
But you’re so cold now, a deepening freeze
In bed with another and I hate that shit
Recall me in you, couldn’t take it, so you told me to quit
And that’s what I feel, a darkness looms
Regret, selfishness are all I consume
I could’ve done better, should’ve never lied
But your the only woman I ever eyed…forever
I guess I’m forced to move on, gotta live life
I guess it wasn’t enough wanting you 2 be my wife
I fell short, if you’re honest…you did too
But fuck it now, we’re both through
Right?…